I wanna share my deepest adoration in to this organic life state we are living in.
Sometimes in a dream (though I can not remember most of its parts) I see my self as some kind of a light beam very likely to “spermal shape” and travelling freely in the Universe without effecting from anything at all.
So soft,
so free,
significantly respectfull and being respected by any energy and mass has ever created.
Most of the time I am not alone in my journeys.
there are no race,
there are no emotions but one constant feeling of Joy.
there is no need for energy
In this state, I am not sure about why do I exist, I am not obliged with some missions or visions of life…
Its a state that you are out of every rule or knowladge,
You do not have human customs…
but there is this beuty of the beuties instict which makes you brighter than ever, strictly, instinctly “confident”
you don’t move but you can just be whereever you want to be…
if you are there, darkness is away.
By the time I wake up from dreaming, I feel heavy.
I look into my hands, my feet and then I get up from the bed and look into my bounce from the mirror.
What I see is the boy I adore… is the man of my wife’s dream… is the baby my mother have given to life
And this Organic State of Life… Is just a state… Reality for sure… but only a temporary condition that our soul must practice.
Organic State of Life is hard for me to describe as I am a simple humanbeing.
the only thing for sure I could say about this organic state of life is I adore to it.
I like each and every moment and organism of it and would do anything to help them getting better situation than they have at the present. But I am heavy, slow, weak and desperate as an organism…
The God’s Testaments on holy books describes this state of existance as a part of our revolution.
God has sent us messages that we are all going to be converted to him one day.
I may be wrong, may be right…
Sooner or Later, humanity will develop a new look upon this organic state of life.
As we all change day by day…
Then there comes a day that all creatures of this world will share the same demand!
I am too tired folks,
tired of being an experimental toy in those doctors hand…
tired of thinking and dreaming a better world…
tired of wanting more…
tired of feeding this body with other organisms to exist…
tired of handling my loved ones problems… understanding them… solving their mysteries…
tired of fighting with life and system to stay alive and whealthy enough to be happy…
tired of wishing goodness for each of us…
tired of the fear of being punished by this public for my sins…
tired of being despised for being different…
tired of feeling lonely even if surrounded with love and family…
tired of feeling stupid…
tired of disliking myself and criticising me so hard and ruthlessly
tired of empty tries of change and never to like new me…
tired of explaining to world that I am here, lonesome, full of questions and seeking for innerpeace so eagerly…
tired of balancing the good and the bad in me…
tired of trying to get better…
tired of screaming silently…
tired of crying desperately into others pain…
tired of having the knowladge of one thing for sure: Death!
tired of wondering whose turn to die…
tired of vicious people of loneliness…
tired of politics became life style of todays…
tired of playrole people and fake friendships…
tired of public enforcement and indulgement…
tired of being desperate to help hopeless and homeless…
tired of feeling sick most of the time…
tired of hearth breaks of the short moments I once felt good and still missing those moments…
tired of fighting with my addictions…
tired of constrained happiness…
tired of fighting with devils and answering their delusions…
tired of being tired…
tired of writing this post…
I may be stuck in to this place…
they may trick me with their lies of freedom…
But I am a wanderer with full of hopes people…
I still can wander in my dreams and nobody can stop me doing this.
Better Life is All We Deserve, But How Better is What We Decide Folks!
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